a plan in place -

So, it's getting close! As our closing date approaches, we are starting to make arrangements for packing, U-hauls and air mattresses. I am not looking forward to packing my things - deciding which precious items will be just fine to leave in a drawer, how many layers of towels or newspapers go around one thing, what do you just throw in the packed vehicles to fend for themselves on the 9-10 hour drive. Will I find everything I packed? Will everything arrive intact?

This past weekend was super busy. I had to work Saturday, Ella Grace's party was Saturday evening, then Sunday we went to church and Jeremy got one last hunting trip in. Monday before we took him to the airport, we visited with Mee Maw. Ella Grace asked if we could go get Mee Maw some doughnuts, because we did that once. Aren't we supposed to do it each time now?

This is when things started to sink in for me.

As Mee Maw talked to the kids and asked them questions, I saw her give Ella Grace the sweetest hug. I wondered how many more of these visits could I squeeze in before we move? It was just a flood of emotions. I don't know if I will ever forget standing at her door, talking to her before I left, urging her not to bother with getting up (yet knowing she always does). Even though I couldn't see her, I waved as we pulled away...anyone that knows Mee Maw knows why.

I left crying...heck, I did my share of crying on Monday. It's hard. It's hard planning to pack. It's hard being here without Jeremy. It's hard leaving somewhere that I have been for 10 1/2 years, with our family just a short trip away. It's hard moving away from our friends - friends that we've shared in births, our children in Sunday School together since they were old enough to attend church.

When I decided what my New Year's word would be I had all of this in the back of my head. It is a new kind of growth. I know it might take a while to find a church, to make new friends, to get unpacked and to get adjusted. I know. I am excited about it and the year ahead. I am excited about finding a new job.

For some of this, I have a plan in place.

There's still a lot I haven't figured out.